Forgive Yourself

Sometimes in life we get a little side-tracked.  Distracted.  Off-course.  We get consumed by activities and obligations or sucked in to other people’s drama or we slide down the rabbit-hole.   Whatever it is, it happens to us all at some point and there’s no point in beating yourself up over any of it.  Regret is simply more wasted time and valuable energy.  The important thing is to get back on track no matter how you go about it.

I, myself, had gotten off-track recently.   Ok, not just off-track, seriously derailed.  I found myself completely stalled in the train yard unsure of which way to go.  This was not my normal moda operandi . . .at all.

I was the girl who admitted my fears and then chased after them to dispel them from my life.  Fear is simply a thief, stealing life from before our very eyes.  Yet I had allowed it to creep in and do exactly that . . . steal my life.  Stall me.  Fear had left me dead in my tracks and too numb to realize what was happening.  Yet crazy enough, I don’t regret the experience for everything we experience in life is an opportunity for growth and man, did i grow!!!  Leaps and bounds.

I look back on this period of time in my life and instead of feeling sad or disappointed in myself, I cut myself some slack.  The lessons which are most important oftentimes take the longest to learn.  And through the trials and tribulations of late, I have learned that I am far stronger than I give myself credit for and also that intuition is an incredibly accurate measure of the energy around us.   If something makes you pause and scratch your head and question your path, listen to that voice.  Always.  It’s usually correct.

I feel what has emerged in me from all of these recent struggles far outweighs the pain and the difficulties I faced through it all.   Highs.  Lows.  Bouncing like a ping pong ball between the two.  Many days where I felt like this volley was taking place in a room devoid of all light . . . .complete darkness.  So you can only imagine the elation I feel now with the lights on and the sun shining down on me!  As though the universe has illuminated me with a spotlight and the energy pulsating through me from this light is electric.  To coin a little Alicia Keys . . . this girl is on fire!

So stand back world lest you might just get burned.

 

 

This Magical Desert

Take a quick look at my instagram or my facebook page and there is NO question that I LOVE this desert and all the adventure and exploring it has to offer.

I often think back to the days when I had first moved here to the Palm Springs area from my lifelong hometown near Detroit, Michigan.  We had just survived another humid summer dodging mosquitos the size of hummingbirds and watching the rainstorms all weekend long give way to bright and sunny Monday mornings.  You could almost count on it every week.   But here I was, driving down Highway 111 staring up with the sun in my eyes at these mountains wondering how long it would take somebody to walk to the top of each ridge.  I remember thinking how I couldn’t wait to meet somebody who might be willing to get up there with me and show me the way.

In all honesty, I still look up at the mountains with that same yearning.   At almost any given time, I’d prefer to be making my way up the mountain simply to enjoy the peacefulness and the view.   I just feel as though I truly come alive on the trails.

Over the next several weeks my plan is to share some of my adventures with you.  Funny, and sometimes frightening, stories from the trails along with some of my favorite views.  Check back soon.  I’ll be back with some good dirt. 😉

Sundown at Sawmill

Time for a change

I recently completed two writing courses that challenged me to dig a little deeper and explore areas and ideas I’d been afraid to attempt before now.  This was very rewarding as I discovered a lot about myself and about my ability or talent, if you will, along the way.   I’ve decided it is high time I get back to posting and maintaining my page.  I’m going to begin by sharing a few pieces I developed during the course.  I hope you enjoy them and if you don’t, I hope you’ll be kind as they were posted to share love, enlightenment and positive energy.

 

Change

can come

like a rug being yanked out

from beneath your firmly planted feet

sending you twisting and tumbling down

a long descent of stairs

When you come to rest

choose carefully

Will you lie there lifeless? Defeated?

Or will you spring to your feet

bounding up each step as if it were your first

marveling at the journey

refreshed by the beauty

of new choices?

Change

can happen

so slowly and stealthily

nearly undetectable as it inches in

creeping up on you and swallowing you whole

before you realize nothing is the same

When you discover yourself

in a new landscape of mindset

will you kick and scream?

Will you close your eyes to it all?

The walls you built up seemed so strong

will they now crumble?

Or will you perch high a-top the walls of change

Embrace the vantage point

and fly?