Sometimes in life we get a little side-tracked. Distracted. Off-course. We get consumed by activities and obligations or sucked in to other people’s drama or we slide down the rabbit-hole. Whatever it is, it happens to us all at some point and there’s no point in beating yourself up over any of it. Regret is simply more wasted time and valuable energy. The important thing is to get back on track no matter how you go about it.
I, myself, had gotten off-track recently. Ok, not just off-track, seriously derailed. I found myself completely stalled in the train yard unsure of which way to go. This was not my normal moda operandi . . .at all.
I was the girl who admitted my fears and then chased after them to dispel them from my life. Fear is simply a thief, stealing life from before our very eyes. Yet I had allowed it to creep in and do exactly that . . . steal my life. Stall me. Fear had left me dead in my tracks and too numb to realize what was happening. Yet crazy enough, I don’t regret the experience for everything we experience in life is an opportunity for growth and man, did i grow!!! Leaps and bounds.
I look back on this period of time in my life and instead of feeling sad or disappointed in myself, I cut myself some slack. The lessons which are most important oftentimes take the longest to learn. And through the trials and tribulations of late, I have learned that I am far stronger than I give myself credit for and also that intuition is an incredibly accurate measure of the energy around us. If something makes you pause and scratch your head and question your path, listen to that voice. Always. It’s usually correct.
I feel what has emerged in me from all of these recent struggles far outweighs the pain and the difficulties I faced through it all. Highs. Lows. Bouncing like a ping pong ball between the two. Many days where I felt like this volley was taking place in a room devoid of all light . . . .complete darkness. So you can only imagine the elation I feel now with the lights on and the sun shining down on me! As though the universe has illuminated me with a spotlight and the energy pulsating through me from this light is electric. To coin a little Alicia Keys . . . this girl is on fire!
So stand back world lest you might just get burned.